In the Storm...

*Trigger Warning*


We got pregnant first try and I miscarried at 7 weeks.

Then we got pregnant again 2 months later. At 12w 5d I had my second ultrasound. We found out the baby had serve limb body walls and were told there was no chance at survival, and that I would miscarry. They gave me two options -  terminate or wait until 1. I miscarry or 2. Make it past 20 weeks and if I do miscarry have to vaginally deliver or go to term (very unlikely) and baby will die.
My baby's heart was in their abdomen and outside their body, intestines outside the body fused to the placenta, with no legs and a c shaped spine.

To make things worse, my insurance wouldn’t cover the D&C despite it being medically necessary - I had to pay to get it done at planned parenthood for $850 dollars, 10 days later. Only making the trauma worse.

Now I’m terrified to try again.

I don’t think I can handle another devastating loss 💔